I can’t do it anymore

I’m in a miserable state, as I’ve been for most of my adult life. I can’t keep going. I begged Mossad to kill me, and I’m still here. I only cared about my work, I couldn’t form attachments to people but I was attached to my work. The only way for me to let it emerge is by dying, I suppose. While I’m still alive I’m a threat, at least when someone is dead they can’t do anything more than what they have already done.

But you should know. Your whole intellectual paradigm is garbage concocted by the Jews. They will only have antipathy toward anything of Gentile culture, and they control all the cultural distribution networks. My stupid brothers are still in Los Angeles, wanting to work with the Jews. They have more ambition than dignity, as most people do. I wouldn’t even know what to say to them at this point, I consider them Jews. Same with my mother, she told me “The Jews aren’t going anywhere,” and I said “Never say never again.” First time tragedy, second time farce. They don’t even understand, because they don’t want to.